For the last few weeks, I’ve been in a bit of exile. After about 4 years, I finally broke up with the boyfriend and moved out. My original plan was to find a job while living with him there and move out into my own apartment. However, if you’ve been reading my blog regularly, you …read more.

Anxiety has been really kicking my ass this last month. It started with a finger infection from a cuticle and now I have infections in my armpit from working out and sweating. I’ve never had anything like this, but I feel like it’s because of the condition of the apartment. He smokes infinitely, the apartment …read more.

Living with an alcoholic is a horrible experience. I recommend if anyone you want to date drinks heavily, to NOT date them. Cut them off immediately. Delete their number. Do not persue them or you’ll regret it like I’m doing right now. Doing random things like leaving food out in random places is a thing …read more.

Today was not a good day. A few days ago, I pulled the cuticle from the middle finger of my right hand which caused an infection and it looks nasty. I tried to cure it myself with peroxide and Neosporin over the last few days, but it seemed to only get worse. So today, the …read more.

So it begins. I have 3.5 besties and one of them died today. He was only in his 50s. I won’t reveal his name here because there’s no point, you don’t know him. Apparently he died of a heart attack but I wonder if that had something to do with his drug use as everyone …read more.

My narcissistic boyfriend is the king of crashing out to the point it’s predictable. Tomorrow, he has court for the apartment, but the problem is the court wanted proof that his daughter had been in the house in 2021 to keep the apartment since it’s NYCHA housing. The boyfriend can never handle stress so I …read more.

Miraculously, today was another calm day.Unbelivable. I took it easy for today and worked on updating my resume. Apparently, the new thing is putting it in ATS format or whatever so it can at least be seen by a human. I can only imagine the talent going to waste right now just because a potential …read more.

The last couple days have been uneventful, and in my life, an uneventful day, is a good day. I’ve still been moving my stuff in storage and looking for a job. Been denied at 2 spots, so that sucks. I think all the jobs might be dead leads actually. I’ve never lived in one place …read more.

Today was my 48th birthday and it was very calming, despite I knew that the bf would find some way to get drunk and ruin it. But I decided to turn a new leaf and not write about him anymore. From now on, my journal is going to be about me. I made some new …read more.

Today was a low drama day. Actually a no drama day. Spent most of the day looking for jobs. Saw a few good potential leads but only the future will tell if they turn into anything. I am feeling both optimistic and skeptical. Not many employers will hire a damn near 50 year old person. …read more.